THE D-DAY

 “Can I keep my commitment? Will I be able to do it?” These questions rang constantly in my mind, the moment I knew it was Guru Purnima….. I am a person who have so much TO DO LISTS in life but I rarely keep my promise to myself. So, I was pretty sure I am not going to do it…. I will again break a commitment…. I knew it. Moreover, I didn’t have guts to meet her, to face her and to tell her what I wanted to say since seven years. To say sorry to person whom you have hurt a lot and to mean it needs huge courage. And I knew it that day. However sometimes in life, you have such a good partner who pushes you to do things, who gives you a little courage, and with their support, you feel like you can do anything in life. And I am lucky that I fall in that category. My To Do List on that day (Guru Purnima) was so simple. It was to meet a teacher, to greet her Guru Purnima, to gift her with something special and finally to say sorry for a mistake I did in class 10. I call her Pancha Guruaama… I don’t want to go into details of what happened between us , it just stirs up those long-healed stitches. Just a misunderstanding led us to such circumstances, where a good relation of a student and a teacher turned cold. We both did not look at each other throughout the last year in my school. After then, I never visited my school because I could not gather enough courage to look at her. But as I love her, I needed to sort out our relationship.  It was not within my guts to actually meet her and talk to her, I am very coward girl from many aspects, I was thinking to leave her a gift only. And again, there was my partner who was there to encourage me and to take up a little boldness. I bought her a shawl, though my heart was beating faster that I could even hear it, I went to her. I was nervous at first, but the way she welcomed me, the way she treated me, such a warmth, I Felt she has also not forgotten what had happened between us. When she asked me to meet other teachers I said “ I don’t want to go. I have come to meet you only. What happened at class 10…..” Now the words were not coming and the tears were already rolling down my cheeks….In no time, she pulled me, hugged me and she consoled me as if I was a baby. I cried all my tears with her…. Finally I said sorry for it and she forgave me. It was such a relief!!!! . She made my day… She made my life…. And I think somehow… I had also made her day!!!